anthony is still sick, and i still have daily anxiety attacks regarding breastfeeding. denise came over to spend the afternoon with me and help me feed. we were doing fine, but by late afternoon i was back to panicking and once again, threatened to give up all together. this is really hard. whenever i think i've got the hang of things, something else happens that makes it frustrating again. my mom took over after denise left (and is still here spending the night) so once again i am so thankful to have help (both in person and in text from everyone who has been checking up on me). after my anxiety attack, i realized that i DO want to keep on trying, so here we go again.
emilie stopped by this afternoon to visit reese and drop off some chinese food. i ate a fortune cookie before going to sleep, and thought this fortune was totally meant for me. it is always darkest before dawn.
patience, karen!
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Aww! Reading this with Genevieve (Claude's cousin) and we both totally send you love. We've been there and know about how unfun and anxiety-ridden breastfeeding can be. One feeding at a time, and know you're doing the best that you can! Hang in, momma!
aww thanks girls! it really, really helps to know that others can relate and understand what it feels like. it makes me feel less guilty. thanks for your encouragement!!
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